You’ve run around in circles and begged silly/broken/dishonest/confused people for attention. You’ve looked for validation in places you’d have been better off avoiding all together. You’ve ignored the qualities others admire in you.
You’ve exhausted yourself running back to the past.
You have tried to make sense of nonsense and allowed others to waste your time with drama and chaos. You’ve put off trips and talked yourself out of taking chances. You made the terrible decision to believe the lies that were told to you by unhealthy people with malicious motivations.
You seemed to be swinging on a pendulum between happiness and despair when it happens….
You snap out of your daze and realize that this is your life.
You finally get that you have to keep moving forward, no matter what. It starts to dawn on you that orbiting around the same old stuff is going to just keep you in a place you have already experienced and gotten everything you will get out out of.
You accept that there is a whole world out there to see, a world full of people to meet, foods to try, gardens to sit in and exciting nights to enjoy. There are experiences to be had and skin that needs to be shed. For a moment your heart races, you’re not anxious, you are excited.
You have a fresh start. You can go anywhere you want to from here. All you have to do is let go of what no longer fits into the life you want to be living right now. You think about all of the ways you will educate and polish yourself. How you will treat yourself and others better. How you will live to a higher standard and surround yourself with honest, loving, supportive and like-minded people.
You’re ready to relish in your success. You’re ready to ignite your inspiration. You’re ready to stop existing and start really living La Bella Vita.
It’s not rock bottom. You’re finally opening your eyes to the fact that you’re on top.